What would you do when you have feelings for someone? Would you rather tell that person frankly or keep it deep inside? Would you rather see he/she just fade away from you even before you tell him/she the truth? Would you rather see other girl or guy take him/she away? Arrrrgggggghhhhh. I can't stand it anymore. :( It is indeed difficult when you don't have a pretty face, a nice figure or simply put as when you are far beyond perfect. People won't even take a glance at you. Haaaaaaa.

Currently, wait not currently..Most of the time, I am engulfed with fear.. I admit I do like someone but I'm afraid to be frank. I am really afraid. I am afraid that my feelings will not be reciprocate. I am afraid that I will spoil everything. I am afraid that I wil be look down upon. I am afraid that I'll be laugh at. I am afraid that everything would turn put badly.. Simply, I am afraid! On the other hand, If I continue to hide it deep inside of me, I'll lose that person..What should I do then? Arrrrrrrgggggh. :(

While pupe was in Singapore, she never fail to coax me, give me words that would definitely boost my confidence level. But now.. she's in India! How nowwwwwww? Come back soon lahhh pupe. :( Nonetheless, when she's away now, my mum has became my closest companion. Although I would never tell her what I am feeling or even show it except dreaming away.. she would know what's going through in my mind. She told me not to put any hope on this feeling for perhaps I would end up getting hurt instead. However, pupe's opinion & dayah's opinion are totally different. They told me that one day or perhaps soon, this feeling will be reciprocated.. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Tell me how now? :( Once again, im confused.

I am confused about everything now, except for one thing.. I am certain that this time.. my feelings are true.