At times.. I do wish that I could just fell asleep and never wake up again... That's what I'm feeling right now.. My heart feels so heavy, my eyes are full of tears..i need a shoulder to lie on right now.. :( There are too many things running through my mind now.. Too many things.. All these things are making my heart wrenched and at the same time, I feel extremely exhausted.. VERY exhausted.. :'(
YOU. Why must I care when you don't even care about me at all, i suppose. Why should I feel so hurt because of your ignorance towards me? Why should I think about you every moment.. even when I"m performing my prayers..? You occupy that small little space in my mind. Why? Why do I love you so much when I don't even know what's your feelings towards me? Why should I gave my whole heart to you even though I knew that perhaps, I might be hurting myself? Why? Why do this stupid feelings make me feel so hurt? Boy, I'm tired.. I'm really tired.. :( I've never felt so hurt in my entire 18 years of living in this world.. :(
Mummy, I love you. I really do. No one can ever replace you! NEVER.
Daddy, you're the best father in the world that I could ever asked for. You never say NO to most of the things that I asked for.
Brother, you ARE indeed irritating but you're my one & only dearest brother. I may scold you, pinch you or shout at you when I'm really angry or pissed off but all in all, i love you more that anything else. :)
Pupe, You're my pupe. Forever, insya'Allah. :D
Hidayah, you're my closest & nicest buddy. I love you too.
And yeahh, I'm certainly afraid of my results. Will I cry because of joy? Or Will I cry due to huge disappointment? Grrrrrrrrrrghhhh. :( Lets wait and see.
I guess thats all for now, take care!
All the best to all O'level Candidates who will be taking their results this coming monday, especially my beloved classmates from 5N2! :D
Hugs!
